Every year, I like to set a New Year’s resolution for myself, and every year I struggle with it a little. It’s probably the same reason I struggle with things like Christmas lists and last-minute ideas; I just don’t do well on the spot.
This year, though, I was ready.
This time last year, I was not in a good place. I was struggling with self-worth in the aftermath of a personal crisis that I did everything in my power to suppress. I pressured myself to put out content that in hindsight, I’m just not proud of.
I spent the year in blissful ignorance of the fact that I had been struggling with those things. But now, I find myself being reminded of it all by the same season it started in, and I want to do better.
This year, I'm challenging myself.
In a lot of ways, my resolution comes down to the same advice and guidance we hear from the self-care movement.
Talk to yourself positively.
Treat yourself like a best friend.
Trust yourself; you know what you’re doing.
Be true to your inner voice.
Now, it’s a little out of character for me to say all this. I’m usually the kind of person who looks at stuff like that, thinks it’s a little too corny, and looks away quickly. But honestly, I’m not willing to spend another year feeling the way I did this past year.
Because maybe it didn’t look like I was floundering and lost, but trust me. It felt like it.
This year, I’m going to stop bending to arbitrary rules, feeling like I have to do things because others do them. I’m going to do what I’ve always wanted to do. I’m going to trust myself on what I do know, and teach myself what I don’t.
I’m going to follow my own compass, do what I believe is best, and find ways to do what I love to do.
And I'm going to create things I can be proud of.
If I’m being entirely honest, Girl Boss Academy was a half-baked attempt at following my passion. I genuinely love helping people, and if I can help by sharing what I know about something, it’s a no-brainer for me.
GBA had the right intention, but I hated how it turned out.
I built it because I wanted a way to help people do what I do every day, but I used someone else’s rules to create it. I followed instructions that didn’t fit my vision, did it all too quickly, and ultimately, I created something that I myself stopped wanting to promote not long after the launch.
Soon, I’m closing Girl Boss Academy and introducing you to what I should have done a year ago. What I should have created to make everything I know available for women like me, trying to start and run a blog out of pocket.
I’ll announce it officially soon, so keep an eye out here and on Instagram.