I won’t lie, this week has been a little weird.
It took me a couple of days to figure out why, because at first, it just sort of felt like I was wandering aimlessly through my daily schedule. But maybe Thursday last week, it occurred to me that I felt weird because I wasn’t writing.
It’s funny if you think about it, because well, they do say it takes 20 days to form a habit, and for 31 days, I spent three hours every day writing. Not having that outlet, that part of my routine, had left much bigger of a gap than I realized.
It dawned on me that now, I had three hours in my day that I hadn’t realized I’d had before.
And that’s given me time to catch up.
I didn’t really notice it at the time, but in hindsight, there were quite a few things that got pushed off to the side throughout October so I could have the time I needed to write. Things like working on holiday jumpers, which are now in the process of being sewn together.
Like my morning coffee + FFXIV routine, which all but disappeared and caused me to completely miss the fact that the Fall Guys collaboration is going on now.
Like finally playing Fae Farm with my sister (yes, the same one coming up with creative uses for druids), who’s responsible for my own love of Harvest Moon and was just so excited to have a game that worked between a Switch and a PC.
Though I do miss writing every day, it’s been nice to have time for things like that.
I’m going to hold onto my three hours.
It might be a strange lesson to take from something like Blogtober, but it has genuinely been nice realizing that I do have more time than I think I do in a day. It’s taken a lot of the stress and anxiety that I deal with pretty much every day and given me a bit of breathing room.
So I think I’m going to try and hold onto that idea in my mind. I tend to picture time as looming colours in my mind, actual walls and blocks in front of me that come with happy colours or anxious colours depending on how I feel about it beforehand.
I’m going to try and visualize that three-hour block every day, so I can decide what I want to do with it, and enjoy the extra time I’ve learned to see.